"The marvellous thing is that it's painless" - Hemingway

oh my goodness! around 8pm or so i got out of a phi alpha theta meeting (which i am president of this year) and it was amazing. a professor here at school told her story about growing up under Hitler in world war 2. she was a little girl born in 1939 and she recounted her memories of fleeing from the russians from silesia, poland into prague, czech republic and then back home to silesia. afterwards she became a good communist and finally in 1958 moved to west germany and then in 1962 i believe, she came to the united states. it was amazing and yes, it is a truism that the innocent always suffer because of war. she was an innocent and my how she suffered through the course of the war. what a remarkable story and it is something that i will treasure always, espcially being a history nerd and will use it to judge my own perceptions of todays world. she is so thankful to the united states and yes, i agree; she holds the opinon that we fight then war then we do good. she remembers getting C.A.R.E. packages into soviet occupied poland as late as probably winter of 1946/47 and is very very thankful for the americans for that. as she put it: "throwing up worms with peanut butter is better than just worms."

other than that my evening has been really busy. had an academic cmte mtg this evening then a student government association meeting right after that, from which i had to leave early to prepare for the phi alpha theta speaker tonight. since i got back to the room i have done nothing even though i know there is so much to do, the hope of working on my senior thesis is gone really as i want to make more coffee and then go to sleep and i just justify the fact that i will not work on the senior thesis on the fact that i can always do it tomorrow during the 3.5 hours that i work in the placid amicable and boring quiet of the library in the morning. the job isn't that bad just that i have no access to the liquid fuel that keeps me going during the day and has become--once again--such a staple to my diet this past week. once again, just wishing about a lot of things. life school and romance seem to top the list and those three seem to encompass everything else. maybe Hemingway is right. about what. i don't know.